It is so easy to get lost in every day life. This is evidenced by the fact that I haven't posted in 4 years... I have been busy! My kids are now 9 and 10 years old, I went through grad-school and got a Masters of Science in Clinical Counseling, started my own business, decided to homeschool my children, got a pastoral commissioning, became a Certified Temperament Counselor, and have international students that live in my house, BUT that dose not give me an excuse to not be seeking and following God.
Honest moment.... Life is hard... Actually it is mean... I have been struggling in so many ways.
It is HARD being busy... It is HARD being a mom and a homeschooling mom at that... It HARD having the title "pastor" put in front of your name... It is HARD... Where ever you are, I am sure there are HARD parts about it as well. Life is just plain HARD sometimes. I joke and say, first world problems, but it relates to everyone, first or third world.
Here are some of the things that are hard in my life right now:
Are you struggling with anything friends? Are you hurting? Are you disliking yourself? Are you feeling rejected and pushed away and just that life is really in a difficult spot? Are you finding it hard to connect with God, even though you are trying?
Life is hard, it is busy, it is so easy to get distracted and to get too busy to focus on what really matters, your one relationship with God. I have had a really great experience getting closer with God lately where I have been studying and reading and I was feeling really connected. Then I got sick. I used my sickness as an excuse and I pushed people away and I pushed away God. I know that the devil was using it and letting me use it as an excuse. And I let him... Now, I have some serious ground to recover.
I was private about my sickness until after I was feeling better, after I was taken care of medically, and I think that I closed people off. I'm sure that people looked at me and thought I was rejecting them because I had zero energy to do anything, or because I just conserved my energy and didn't really make a huge effort for anything. I backed out of responsibilities at church because the energy to do everything was taxing me beyond what I thought that I could physically handle. I closed off a lot of my life because I didn't want people to see my inadequacies. I didn't want people to see me for anything but pretty perfect because I'm a counselor and I'm supposed to have it all together.
Well there it is - a counselor, admitting that she is struggling.
So what do I do about that?
I am remembering that God KNOWS ME!
1 Corinthians 8:3 But whoever LOVES God is KNOWN BY GOD.
I'm finding ways that I am loved by the KING
Galations 3:26
25But since that faith has come, we are no longer under a guardian, 26for through faith you are all sons (and daughters) of God in Christ Jesus.
I'm putting myself out there more, being more welcoming to others who may be struggling, so they don't feel that way as well - and that is really HARD for me!
Jame 2 (excerpts) My brothers, show no partiality as you hold the faith in our Lord Jesus Christ the LORD of glory. .... Listen, my BELOVED brothers, has not God chosen those who are poor in the world to be rich in faith and HEIRS of the kingdom, which he has promised to those who love him?.......
Honest moment.... Life is hard... Actually it is mean... I have been struggling in so many ways.
It is HARD being busy... It is HARD being a mom and a homeschooling mom at that... It HARD having the title "pastor" put in front of your name... It is HARD... Where ever you are, I am sure there are HARD parts about it as well. Life is just plain HARD sometimes. I joke and say, first world problems, but it relates to everyone, first or third world.
Here are some of the things that are hard in my life right now:
- I'm busy
- I don't feel connected to anything or anyone really
- I forget to connect with the few friends I do have and my family
- I hate making new friends- it is like dating (so much work!!!!) but I also hate being alone
- Thru all the schooling I have done lately, I have learned more about myself than i ever have and loving myself is HARD.
- I see my friends going out with their friends and it is HARD, I struggle with jealousy, but then what am I doing to work on that friendship?
- I have not been relying on God for everything, always...
Are you struggling with anything friends? Are you hurting? Are you disliking yourself? Are you feeling rejected and pushed away and just that life is really in a difficult spot? Are you finding it hard to connect with God, even though you are trying?
Life is hard, it is busy, it is so easy to get distracted and to get too busy to focus on what really matters, your one relationship with God. I have had a really great experience getting closer with God lately where I have been studying and reading and I was feeling really connected. Then I got sick. I used my sickness as an excuse and I pushed people away and I pushed away God. I know that the devil was using it and letting me use it as an excuse. And I let him... Now, I have some serious ground to recover.
I was private about my sickness until after I was feeling better, after I was taken care of medically, and I think that I closed people off. I'm sure that people looked at me and thought I was rejecting them because I had zero energy to do anything, or because I just conserved my energy and didn't really make a huge effort for anything. I backed out of responsibilities at church because the energy to do everything was taxing me beyond what I thought that I could physically handle. I closed off a lot of my life because I didn't want people to see my inadequacies. I didn't want people to see me for anything but pretty perfect because I'm a counselor and I'm supposed to have it all together.
Well there it is - a counselor, admitting that she is struggling.
So what do I do about that?
I am remembering that God KNOWS ME!
1 Corinthians 8:3 But whoever LOVES God is KNOWN BY GOD.
I'm finding ways that I am loved by the KING
Galations 3:26
25But since that faith has come, we are no longer under a guardian, 26for through faith you are all sons (and daughters) of God in Christ Jesus.
I'm putting myself out there more, being more welcoming to others who may be struggling, so they don't feel that way as well - and that is really HARD for me!
Jame 2 (excerpts) My brothers, show no partiality as you hold the faith in our Lord Jesus Christ the LORD of glory. .... Listen, my BELOVED brothers, has not God chosen those who are poor in the world to be rich in faith and HEIRS of the kingdom, which he has promised to those who love him?.......
I want to impact God's kingdom but I can't just sit here and say that, I have to take action. I would love to hear how I can be praying for you, what you are struggling with and how we can encourage each other in Christ. Comment, share, comment on my facebook page. Let me know. But first, remember this:
GOD KNOWS YOU, GOD LOVES YOU, YOU ARE HIS SON OR DAUGHTER and HE WANTS TO USE YOU TO AFFECT THE WORLD.
GOD KNOWS YOU, GOD LOVES YOU, YOU ARE HIS SON OR DAUGHTER and HE WANTS TO USE YOU TO AFFECT THE WORLD.
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