I walk past the coffee maker and look at it longingly. Missing that bitter and surprisingly sweet
brew to be slipping down my throat at that minute having taken its journey past
all my taste buds. Sighing, I feel the
pain in my chest caused by heartburn that I have been suffering from the past
few days; I walk past almost able to smell the coffee in the air. Trying my hardest to wrestle two kids into
clothes and into the car, I forget to dress myself and drive to school, late,
in my jammie top covered in a thick coat so no one will notice. Getting home, I walk past the coffee maker
again, the urge to brew a pot is so strong.
I plant myself at my computer to write this and all I can think of is
coffee. Coffee and heartburn.
The past 3 days I have had severe heartburn going on. I don’t know why it is happening, but it
is. Waking up and being kept awake from
11pm- 5am with shooting pains stabbing your chest does not help the no-coffee
factor while trying to stay awake. Counting the seconds and
the minutes that the pain is intense, waiting for it to go away, exhausted and
hungry. Everything I eat causes some
sort of pain, everything other than a McDonalds Strawberry Milkshake, for some
reason that is soothing.
I miss my coffee. My
mood isn’t very good, my eyes struggle to stay open, I am ready for bed
early. I am addicted. I will admit it. I am addicted. In the
morning, one of the first things that I usually do is to make coffee. On days when I forget to, I feel it by the
end of the day. I have an addiction, I
long for it. My addiction is strong, it
is long standing, it has developed over years.
I am hopeful that once my heartburn goes away, I can go back to drinking
it.
I had to ask God what he wanted me to see in this
situation. Giving up coffee… the pain…
Sometimes things that we do are not good for us. We are addicted to bad things in life, it
could be gambling, pornography, drugs, alcohol…. We are addicted to things that aren’t bad, but take a priority in
our lives a lot of time also like Facebook, the Internet, Pintrest. Not all addictions are bad things, but we
really have a hard time not knowing what to do without them.
So here is what God tells me this morning: why are you
addicted to coffee? Why are you
addicted to the internet and the computer, but you are not addicted to Me? I am the one that gave you life, gave you
your family, children, I gave you the coffee plant and you choose to dwell on
that when you didn’t spend time with ME this morning. Why do you choose that addiction and not get addicted to My word?
Burn God… Burn… How true is that- he is the one that gave us
everything, that formed us in our wombs and knew us before we were made, but we
are more addicted to all these other things.
I was lead to the chapter in John – John 4 starting at verse 1 and going
through verse 26 I have taken a few of the verses below. The woman goes to the well to get
water. Water was scarce and she needed
water. She was involved in all sorts of
bad things. She was living with a man
that wasn’t her husband, she was addicted to lust.
13 Jesus answered,
“Everyone
who drinks this water will be thirsty again, 14 but
whoever drinks the water I give them will never thirst. Indeed, the water I
give them will become in them a spring of water welling up to eternal life.”
15 The woman said
to him, “Sir, give me this water so that I won’t get thirsty and have to keep
coming here to draw water.”
16 He told her, “Go, call your husband
and come back.”
17 “I have no
husband,” she replied.
Jesus said to her, “You are right when you say you have no
husband. 18 The fact is, you have had five husbands, and the
man you now have is not your husband. What you have just said is quite true.”
19 “Sir,” the
woman said, “I can see that you are a prophet. 20 Our
ancestors worshiped on this mountain, but you Jews claim that the place where
we must worship is in Jerusalem.”
21 “Woman,” Jesus replied,
“believe
me, a time is coming when you will worship the Father neither on this mountain
nor in Jerusalem. 22 You Samaritans worship what you do not know; we
worship what we do know, for salvation is from the Jews. 23 Yet a time is coming and has now come when the
true worshipers will worship the Father in the Spirit and in truth, for they
are the kind of worshipers the Father seeks. 24 God
is spirit, and his worshipers must worship in the Spirit and in truth.”
25 The woman said,
“I know that Messiah” (called Christ) “is coming. When he comes, he will
explain everything to us.”
26 Then Jesus
declared, “I,
the one speaking to you—I am he.”
I want the water He was talking about. I want to be addicted to Jesus and not
coffee. I want to desire Jesus, not
Facebook. I want to get my inspiration
from Jesus, not from silly saying on Pinterest. I want and need Jesus to be the living water and then I won’t be
thirsting for the things of this world.
I only want to thirst for Him.
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